Personally, I think it is issues with mudslinging and I've probably pissed quite a few people off with my issues against barbie-ing and human trafficking people around. Probably pissed Maggie off too for simply telling her to fuck off and she wants a boyfriend to beat me into submission to her. I still do not take it back. I am not sorry for that or saying that I feel raped by the world. Of course, it pisses people off and they would want to find something to judge you back with.
For the fucking millionth time, my dad and I have never been a part of incest. It is a disturbing thought, I know, but it is a fucking lie. As I've said before, I had a boyfriend who stalked and abused me. Living a sheltered Christian life, it was very shocking and very disturbing to have experienced him at the time. It pushed me over the edge and I went crazy and said a lot of crazy things. This was in 2002. He abused me so much that I kept questioning: "what the hell is wrong with me?" His abuse mixed with my low self esteem to not get out of the relationship drove me insane. I took everything back and said that I didn't mean what I said. Info fell into the wrong hands and I think it is the real reason that people blackmail and try to find excuses to keep stalking and watching me. This happened in 2002 and people still want to use it as an excuse to judge me to this day.
As before and to this day, I consider my parents strict, controlling, authoritarian, and repressing, but not in a sexual way. My dad was violent with me when I was younger, but NO he never raped me. And HELL NO it wouldn't be consensual or something that I fantasize about. Oprah, I know you love Obama, but are you that threatened of me where you would be so corrupt to lie like that? Wow. What the hell do you do when Oprah, one of the most powerful women, lies? Definitely crippling. Even though I was at work, I still broke out and said something. My immediate word was: Cancer. How is anyone going to find a treatment to this tumor?
Even worse, she does it in a catty way that cripples me even more. I'm calling her a coward. You want to talk Oprah? You really want to accuse and judge someone like that and exploit it, lets talk. I wouldn't be afraid to go on your show and call you a liar to your face. I really hope there are other catty newsreporters that will help me in taking care of this cancer if I don't get justice with you.
God bless Mackenzie Phillip's heart who realistically wrote the book. I hope she truly feels success in setting herself free. I'm not trying to ruin her by me being so defensive for myself, but I don't want to be lied about like that. My honest thoughts toward her: I think it is gross. I think it is really gross. I'm sorry you had to experience that. You were young, you were very ignorant, in your environment and the parenting you had, you were probably clueless that it is severely unacceptable. I don't blame you, I blame your father. I don't think you should live in shame the rest of your life though. I think there is a time when you feel ashamed to let yourself feel ashamed, but then move on with your life. In anything you put your hands to, anything, I think you should be given a fair chance as anyone else would at having opportunities. I hope you're not hated on, discriminated against, and suffer the rest of your life for what happened to you. I'll go as far as being able to relate to the stockholm syndrome, not with my father like you, but in other instances.
In stockholm syndrome, you feel special. Someone really aggressively wants you. Because they take total control with the kidnapping and aren't afraid to do so, you see their confidence even though its wrong. It is something that happens naturally and I don't feel either of us should feel ashamed when it is out of our control. I understand though the tendency to feel embarassed with how criminal it is. It feels wrong to want them. I don't have much of a conclusion for it. But I'll go as far as being able to relate to the stockholms syndrome concept.
